Essays by Michelle
The Dark Night of My Soul: What I Know One Year Later
A year ago, I voluntarily walked through the heavy metal door of a private psychiatric hospital in San Antonio, Texas. The door clanged shut behind me, and I immediately regretted my decision. I had crossed a threshold.
Today, I am in a totally different place, physically, mentally, emotionally, and geographically. Gratefully. This is the story I couldn’t tell then. The story of what actually led me there.
The Year of the Fire Horse Meets the Year of the Deer
The Fire Horse is yang, solar, and kinetic. Yang fire does not grow quietly; it shines and demands recognition. Kej, by contrast, invites us inward first. Deer do not charge — they listen.
These are not opposing energies; they are complementary. The Fire Horse gives us the spark and the courage to move powerfully. Kej gives us the roots and the wisdom to move mindfully.
The Year of the Deer: Grounding into Strength & Sacred Responsibility
February 18, 2026 marks the Mayan New Year and the Year of the Deer (1 Kej). Discover how this powerful nawal guides us to root deeply, care for our bodies, reconnect with nature, and embody spiritual leadership grounded in integrity.
1 Imox: Listening for the New Dream
1 Imox marks the beginning of a new cycle, inviting us back to the primordial waters of intuition, sensation, and dreaming. This day reminds us that new dreams don’t arrive fully formed—they emerge through listening, patience, and trust in the unseen currents already carrying us forward.
9 Kan – The Serpent of Wisdom and Awakening
9 Kan calls us to awaken the serpent of wisdom within—to honor the cycles of life, channel creative energy with compassion, and see through illusion into the unity of all creation.
7 Aq’ab’al – The Light of Perspective
7 Aq’ab’al illuminates the threshold between night and day, shadow and light. It invites us to honor both beginnings and endings as sacred mirrors guiding us toward balance and truth.
6 Iq’ – The Breath of Balance
6 Iq’ invites us to pause, breathe, and realign. This is a day to listen deeply—to the wind, to Spirit, and to the quiet truth that flows through the breath.